Yeah, baby!
My insomnia is back, hardcore!
My sleep total for the week is up to 4 hours. The hour and a half of it that I got last night was spent dreaming about watching a guy I knew in high school trip on acid while Perrin from the Wheel of Time series discussed blacksmithing with me.
Any help? And I mean for helping me sleep, not to get rid of my crack-tastic dreams.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Warning: Mildly Religious Content in This Week's Report
First of all: The funny bits -
Quote of the Week:
(over the phone) "Aynsley, is Pan's Labyrinth supposed to be in Spanish?" - not named to protect the guilty
Weekly Acheivement: I cleaned out my advisor's office. No seriously. She got there 3 years ago, and it was filthy. And she just never got around to cleaning it all out. I did, this week. And before you say anything about my bedroom, Lucy, I'd like to clarify: I believe in friendly clutter. Little jumbles of stuff help me think. This was completely disgusting. The waste beakers were overgrown with mold, and that's about the only healthy thing in there. I would post pictures, except I'm pretty sure she'd kill me for taking them, after I kept commenting how great it was going, and after every person in the building stopped by to see what was going on (the pile of trash in the hall was about 4 feet tall, 10 feet long, and sloping out 4 feet from the wall - just to give you an idea)...and congratulate her on "knowing how to pick them" and telling her what an amazing improvement it was.
To set up the religious bit: I am, in fact, a "Christian". Oddly enough, most people don't think I am, because there's a Bible verse says "By their deeds, you will know them." (I know it's in Matthew, I think Chapter 11, but I am far too lazy, er, efficient, to look it up [bonus points if you know what I'm referencing]); and therefore, I don't really go around advertising...usually. I don't wear crosses. I don't carry a Bible, partially because I didn't go pick out my own for graduation, so my youth group leader picked one out for me...meaning some sort of women's study Bible that is supposed to be inspirational, but I find to be generally offensive, instead. As Miche said, it has a little slant to it. So back to knowing them by their deeds: I am generally mean, and that usually keeps people from thinking any nice thoughts about me.
The next bit of set up: My grandmother thinks I am going to Hell. Not because I am mean, but because I think the existence of "Satan" is a crock. I've discussed this with a few people, and the thing I agree with the most, that I've heard, is that the devil is a metaphor for free will. Which makes a lot of sense to me. What is someone talking about when they reference their demons? Another way I see it is that we've all got evil in us, and good, and it's up to us to choose "which wolf to feed".
So, you might ask what brings all of this up? Jerry Falwell. Everyone seems to either hate him or love him. So, I've got some news for all of you who felt the need to celebrate or cry over his death:
He's just a man.
That's right, mortal, human, whatever you want to call him, he's no more or less than that.
To the people celebrating his death: Are you so small and petty inside that someone, who has more than likely never actually affected you more directly than condemning your lifestyle, dying makes you happy? Oh, and condemning someone's choices...I hate to break it to you, but that's free speech. If we live in a country where it is okay to display a banner that says "Bong Hits 4 Jesus" at a school parade just to do so, then speaking one's opinion of someone's choices has to be okay, too. If you don't like it, don't listen. Or better yet, defend yourself. If you honestly believe that what you're doing that's being condemned is okay, then find the person who is doing the condemning and tell them so. Argue with them. If you can defend yourself intelligently and articulately, you'll win more respect for yourself than by screaming that someone is an idiot or celebrating their death.
Now, for the people crying over the death of Mr. Falwell: My grandmother was upset because "he was the only one anymore that would stand up and say things weren't right". I assume that this is going to the viewpoint of those who are dramatically mourning his death, and I'm going to take a leap of faith and assume that the majority of those mourners are conservative Christians. (I am not saying that all conservative Christians are reacting this way, or even the majority, but the ones reacting, more than likely, are going to be conservative Christians. Please make sure you have the subsets straight before you send me a 3-page e-mail telling me that you are a conservative Christian, you hated Jerry Falwell, and that I am an asshole in general. Also, re-read the above paragraph.) You'll excuse me for again being too...efficient...to cite exact book and verse, but didn't Jesus sup with tax collectors and prostitutes (i.e: the most hated people in those days)? Wasn't Jesus's message more or less one of love, compassion, and forgiveness, not hate and accusation? Jerry Falwell did do a lot of condemning. Maybe he should have tried loving those he condemned instead. Maybe common sense, something about more flies with honey, might have made more sense.
And now, I feel compelled to get on my soapbox for the one person who hasn't stopped reading already. If Satan exists, it's only the evil inside each of us. The hate, the scorn, contempt, pride, and desire to hurt, that we need to fight. To be clear, we should fight it in ourselves. I'm not going to tell anyone where I think they are lacking, unless they honestly want my opinion because they are trying to improve themselves. I believe in that "Thou shalt not judge." Another point, I will evaluate people, and decide whether or not I want to be around them, but I'm not going to tell someone how to live. If they want to know why I make the choices I do, I'll do my best to explain, but when they try to tell me why I'm wrong for living as I do, they cross a line. If they cross it too many times, and I will drop them from my life. I can believe in forgiveness without suffering what I consider abuse. You don't have to forgive someone who not only doesn't ask for it, but doesn't think there is anything wrong with their behavior. It's nice to be able to do that, but most people who do, actually do it in such a pompous and arrogant manner that they only offend their opponents further.
If you actually made it through all of this, thank you. I'm not saying that this is what everyone has to believe, but that this is the truth, as far as I have been able to discern, not the absolute truth. This is what I live by. Or try to. You see, I'm human, too, and don't always manage to stick with what is good and pure and perfect.
And if you've read this, and want to talk to me about anything I've written here, I'm more than happy to talk, but more importantly, listen. I think that this was my chance to talk, and I'd love to hear anyone's response, as long as it follows the guidelines I stated above.
Next week's sermon focuses on anger. I might even properly cite my sources next time.
Quote of the Week:
(over the phone) "Aynsley, is Pan's Labyrinth supposed to be in Spanish?" - not named to protect the guilty
Weekly Acheivement: I cleaned out my advisor's office. No seriously. She got there 3 years ago, and it was filthy. And she just never got around to cleaning it all out. I did, this week. And before you say anything about my bedroom, Lucy, I'd like to clarify: I believe in friendly clutter. Little jumbles of stuff help me think. This was completely disgusting. The waste beakers were overgrown with mold, and that's about the only healthy thing in there. I would post pictures, except I'm pretty sure she'd kill me for taking them, after I kept commenting how great it was going, and after every person in the building stopped by to see what was going on (the pile of trash in the hall was about 4 feet tall, 10 feet long, and sloping out 4 feet from the wall - just to give you an idea)...and congratulate her on "knowing how to pick them" and telling her what an amazing improvement it was.
To set up the religious bit: I am, in fact, a "Christian". Oddly enough, most people don't think I am, because there's a Bible verse says "By their deeds, you will know them." (I know it's in Matthew, I think Chapter 11, but I am far too lazy, er, efficient, to look it up [bonus points if you know what I'm referencing]); and therefore, I don't really go around advertising...usually. I don't wear crosses. I don't carry a Bible, partially because I didn't go pick out my own for graduation, so my youth group leader picked one out for me...meaning some sort of women's study Bible that is supposed to be inspirational, but I find to be generally offensive, instead. As Miche said, it has a little slant to it. So back to knowing them by their deeds: I am generally mean, and that usually keeps people from thinking any nice thoughts about me.
The next bit of set up: My grandmother thinks I am going to Hell. Not because I am mean, but because I think the existence of "Satan" is a crock. I've discussed this with a few people, and the thing I agree with the most, that I've heard, is that the devil is a metaphor for free will. Which makes a lot of sense to me. What is someone talking about when they reference their demons? Another way I see it is that we've all got evil in us, and good, and it's up to us to choose "which wolf to feed".
So, you might ask what brings all of this up? Jerry Falwell. Everyone seems to either hate him or love him. So, I've got some news for all of you who felt the need to celebrate or cry over his death:
He's just a man.
That's right, mortal, human, whatever you want to call him, he's no more or less than that.
To the people celebrating his death: Are you so small and petty inside that someone, who has more than likely never actually affected you more directly than condemning your lifestyle, dying makes you happy? Oh, and condemning someone's choices...I hate to break it to you, but that's free speech. If we live in a country where it is okay to display a banner that says "Bong Hits 4 Jesus" at a school parade just to do so, then speaking one's opinion of someone's choices has to be okay, too. If you don't like it, don't listen. Or better yet, defend yourself. If you honestly believe that what you're doing that's being condemned is okay, then find the person who is doing the condemning and tell them so. Argue with them. If you can defend yourself intelligently and articulately, you'll win more respect for yourself than by screaming that someone is an idiot or celebrating their death.
Now, for the people crying over the death of Mr. Falwell: My grandmother was upset because "he was the only one anymore that would stand up and say things weren't right". I assume that this is going to the viewpoint of those who are dramatically mourning his death, and I'm going to take a leap of faith and assume that the majority of those mourners are conservative Christians. (I am not saying that all conservative Christians are reacting this way, or even the majority, but the ones reacting, more than likely, are going to be conservative Christians. Please make sure you have the subsets straight before you send me a 3-page e-mail telling me that you are a conservative Christian, you hated Jerry Falwell, and that I am an asshole in general. Also, re-read the above paragraph.) You'll excuse me for again being too...efficient...to cite exact book and verse, but didn't Jesus sup with tax collectors and prostitutes (i.e: the most hated people in those days)? Wasn't Jesus's message more or less one of love, compassion, and forgiveness, not hate and accusation? Jerry Falwell did do a lot of condemning. Maybe he should have tried loving those he condemned instead. Maybe common sense, something about more flies with honey, might have made more sense.
And now, I feel compelled to get on my soapbox for the one person who hasn't stopped reading already. If Satan exists, it's only the evil inside each of us. The hate, the scorn, contempt, pride, and desire to hurt, that we need to fight. To be clear, we should fight it in ourselves. I'm not going to tell anyone where I think they are lacking, unless they honestly want my opinion because they are trying to improve themselves. I believe in that "Thou shalt not judge." Another point, I will evaluate people, and decide whether or not I want to be around them, but I'm not going to tell someone how to live. If they want to know why I make the choices I do, I'll do my best to explain, but when they try to tell me why I'm wrong for living as I do, they cross a line. If they cross it too many times, and I will drop them from my life. I can believe in forgiveness without suffering what I consider abuse. You don't have to forgive someone who not only doesn't ask for it, but doesn't think there is anything wrong with their behavior. It's nice to be able to do that, but most people who do, actually do it in such a pompous and arrogant manner that they only offend their opponents further.
If you actually made it through all of this, thank you. I'm not saying that this is what everyone has to believe, but that this is the truth, as far as I have been able to discern, not the absolute truth. This is what I live by. Or try to. You see, I'm human, too, and don't always manage to stick with what is good and pure and perfect.
And if you've read this, and want to talk to me about anything I've written here, I'm more than happy to talk, but more importantly, listen. I think that this was my chance to talk, and I'd love to hear anyone's response, as long as it follows the guidelines I stated above.
Next week's sermon focuses on anger. I might even properly cite my sources next time.
Monday, May 7, 2007
The Blow Job Poll
I have 'upgraded' my account to the ad-infested Plus level for the specific purpose of creating this poll. You should take it before I delete it to kill the ads.
Do you wish for your identity to be quantified? (Hah! I'm taking discrete math this semester!)
amandaea129 -- Sure
__yossarian -- uhh
jokersdown -- ::shrug::
strsrfrgrl -- huh?
galaxylily -- no
itsallagame75 -- Sure why not?
roseclaw -- never...which is why I'm doing this
saekokato -- math hurts my head
Rate your boredom at this moment. (1 being procrastinating, 10 being so bored that you are taking a poll that someone's brother's girlfriend's hairstylist's niece sent to you because you are that damn bored.)
amandaea129 -- 9
__yossarian -- 1
jokersdown -- 5
strsrfrgrl -- 4
galaxylily -- 3
rolynddeschayne -- 2
itsallagame75 -- 1
roseclaw -- 5
saekokato -- 4
Do you consider blow jobs to be passionate?
amandaea129 -- No
__yossarian -- I am male.
jokersdown -- I am male.
strsrfrgrl -- No
galaxylily -- Yes
rolynddeschayne -- I am male.
itsallagame75 -- No
roseclaw -- Yes
saekokato -- No
Do you consider blow jobs to be passionate?
amandaea129 -- No
__yossarian -- see above
jokersdown -- see above
strsrfrgrl -- see above.... No
galaxylily -- yes
rolynddeschayne -- I am male.
itsallagame75 -- you already asked this??
saekokato -- you and rebecca hurt my head. lots.
Do you consider blow jobs to be passionate? (check as many as you like)
amandaea129 -- No, I am female, I have never received a blow job, so I cannot judge.
__yossarian -- I am male
jokersdown -- Yes, No, I am male, I have never given a blow job, so I cannot judge.
strsrfrgrl -- No, I am female, I have never received a blow job, so I cannot judge., I have never given a blow job, so I cannot judge.
galaxylily -- Yes, I am female
rolynddeschayne -- I am male, I have never received a blow job, so I cannot judge., I have never given a blow job, so I cannot judge.
itsallagame75 -- No, I am female
roseclaw -- Yes
saekokato -- I am female
amandaea129 -- I plead the fifth
__yossarian -- 99999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
jokersdown -- 8
strsrfrgrl -- 2 or 3, maybe.... nd they were gay boy-on-boy porn
galaxylily -- 13
rolynddeschayne -- oh sweet christ, I don't think there's a number for that
itsallagame75 -- 1
roseclaw -- less films than stories
saekokato -- 2
Do you wish for your identity to be quantified? (Hah! I'm taking discrete math this semester!)
amandaea129 -- Sure
__yossarian -- uhh
jokersdown -- ::shrug::
strsrfrgrl -- huh?
galaxylily -- no
itsallagame75 -- Sure why not?
roseclaw -- never...which is why I'm doing this
saekokato -- math hurts my head
Rate your boredom at this moment. (1 being procrastinating, 10 being so bored that you are taking a poll that someone's brother's girlfriend's hairstylist's niece sent to you because you are that damn bored.)
amandaea129 -- 9
__yossarian -- 1
jokersdown -- 5
strsrfrgrl -- 4
galaxylily -- 3
rolynddeschayne -- 2
itsallagame75 -- 1
roseclaw -- 5
saekokato -- 4
Do you consider blow jobs to be passionate?
amandaea129 -- No
__yossarian -- I am male.
jokersdown -- I am male.
strsrfrgrl -- No
galaxylily -- Yes
rolynddeschayne -- I am male.
itsallagame75 -- No
roseclaw -- Yes
saekokato -- No
Do you consider blow jobs to be passionate?
amandaea129 -- No
__yossarian -- see above
jokersdown -- see above
strsrfrgrl -- see above.... No
galaxylily -- yes
rolynddeschayne -- I am male.
itsallagame75 -- you already asked this??
saekokato -- you and rebecca hurt my head. lots.
Do you consider blow jobs to be passionate? (check as many as you like)
amandaea129 -- No, I am female, I have never received a blow job, so I cannot judge.
__yossarian -- I am male
jokersdown -- Yes, No, I am male, I have never given a blow job, so I cannot judge.
strsrfrgrl -- No, I am female, I have never received a blow job, so I cannot judge., I have never given a blow job, so I cannot judge.
galaxylily -- Yes, I am female
rolynddeschayne -- I am male, I have never received a blow job, so I cannot judge., I have never given a blow job, so I cannot judge.
itsallagame75 -- No, I am female
roseclaw -- Yes
saekokato -- I am female
amandaea129 -- I plead the fifth
__yossarian -- 99999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
jokersdown -- 8
strsrfrgrl -- 2 or 3, maybe.... nd they were gay boy-on-boy porn
galaxylily -- 13
rolynddeschayne -- oh sweet christ, I don't think there's a number for that
itsallagame75 -- 1
roseclaw -- less films than stories
saekokato -- 2
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